Gong Xi Fa Cai!!

Title is Chinese version of Happy Lunar New year .Its Chinese new year , celebrated for winning good over evil , similar to Indian Diwali. My neighbor is a Chinese and very nice person. He and his family always maintain eye contact with smile always, exchange few words occasionally. They invited us repeatedly for a new year lunch with his family, also gave us some fruits which is traditional thing for this new year Attached is the photo of lunch, all raw non veg items, rice and a boiler in front of us. One lady described few non veg items as happiness, wealth and longevity and she asked us to cook and eat all of them completely. I wish I would have been Chinese to enjoy that lunch fully, they were so hospitable, we boiled most of them and managed to eat little. Raj had the most unforgettable time there. I should give some gift them tomorrow as its my turn now to show affection.

It’s a 4 days long weekend in Singapore, Friday evening played tennis at Andrews place, after tennis went to Andrew home, Andrew in his late 40’s , most eligible bachelor. Apart from his technical skills & his own business, he is a great professional photographer. Few days back mentioned that he shoot for 3 to 4 hours and deliver 2 or 3 photos, when he showed photos all my doubts were very clear, he photographed most beautiful models across the globe, 8 countries best models are his clients, he told me so may secrets of this fashion world. I will share his photos link after Andrew’s permissions. At Titanic times, hero drawing Kate’s pose was not an acceptable thing to my mind but I should believe now after seeing professionalism in Andrew’s photography. I can’t speak more than that , he gave me different view of professionalism today. My respect towards him doubled. I will request him to teach photography (Of course for free, I can’t afford his price).

Saturday morning few hours badminton, I invited my colleague Mukundan for badminton, unfortunately his leg injured seriously while playing, I felt very bad as it was me who requested him many times to join me, I hope Mukundan will come to office on Wednesday with full recovery. Tennis again in the evening, it was good going for me in tennis , I can able to serve which is quite a good achievement for a first time player. I should aim to give tough competition for Andrew. Swimming in the night, Raj taught me some tips of swimming, badminton again on Sunday morning, quick lunch, back to back tamil and hindi movies with Raj till 5 AM in the morning.

Cycling for some time, and then chatting with Swapnil. Swapnil was my practice head or similar role when I was with Mindtree , he mentioned about my blog and asked me with concern to take proper rest and not to spend nights awake on blogs n work, to the contrary my wife scolding me over phone for sleeping like anything as she only know the truth. It’s Monday late night now and I should catch up some sleep now.

Life's twists

I have one younger sweet brother Ramesh , one of the most honest, very helpful , modest …so on….., all of my villagers including my dad used to like him a lot in my childhood for so many good reasons, he is in good books of almost all my villagers. On the other hand me, hardly people likes me for my different character which was unable to be digested by many villagers.

We were the poorest family in my village in our community. Reasons for having so many fans for my brother are, we being poor he always helps to all those relatively rich people in doing their works, he is there when ever they need him, he bows his head in front of them,. On the other hand, I always have thoughts of conquering whole world. I think it pains a lot if anyone growing or try to grow in and around our surroundings (how many people dare to accept this fact), this pain is directly proportional to growth, more the growth more the pain..that pain is even more in villages, we always tend to think that a sub ordinate should remain at that position throughout the life. So no one even listen to what ever I say. I didn’t remember any good words from my villagers for me , where as lots of praising to my brother, when ever I do something different which obviously looks like a stupid thing to others, everyone came together and gave me a big lecture to be like my brother. I like my brother a lot because of his honesty, his helping nature, he simple life style, ect..etc.. I learned many things unknowingly from him, applied all those on my thoughts to be where I am today.

My brother had the best of childhood life with lot of attention and praising from everyone, stopped his studies due to my family financial conditions, started again as I promised to my dad that I will take care of his educational expenses once I start work, so many twists in his life, he enjoyed what ever the path he chooses always or what ever comes in his away. My parents were too much worried about my career, but they were sure that my brother will earn his food with his good nature and hard working capabilities. All that my parents were expecting is both of their sons to settle down in village or nearby places with some decent life style. In 10 years life changed a lot. Me who is almost useless stupid worst fellow achieved larger than life with my village standards( it might looks like exaggerated statement, one should be in my life to experience that life), my brother where everyone never expected him to be educated completed his graduation and enjoying his time to pass further studies now.

Reason for writing this blog is my brother is studying his CA now (For me this feeling itself is awesome), he failed 7 times so far, the same villagers who used to praise him are showing me as inspiration to my brother which is obvious to their standards of thinking. He is still having faith in him that he will complete his CA, he is not feeling bad as he is always trying his best. When I called home my mom, she is too much worried about my brother career, I explained to my mom that go back to 10 years of your thoughts, then you will enjoy for his achievement of where he is today rather than worrying about present results.

My parents forcefully joined him into MCA after he failed twice in CA, when I realized that his heart is not there I gave him the freedom to choose where ever his heart lies. He is back in his CA, and constantly putting his best. I have seen quite a few people who is dead though they are living as they were never given chance to choose what they want, where as in my brother case its different, he is doing what he wants to do, he is putting his best but still the results are adverse. For me his energy and enthusiasm is inspiring a lot, if he would have passed in his first attempt he also would have been in this rat race of jobs and salaries, at least he is enjoying his time the way he wants. I am more keen on seeing how he is going to take his life forward despite of these failures. I am sure it is going to be inspiring for me.

Hi Raa Ramesh, I know that you will read this blog, I do have so many memories with you, the days you worried about my career, days you cried for me when I was lying in hospital bed, love and affection you are showing on me since childhood.. I will never forget all these things, we achieved something which others even can’t dreamt of in our village with our financial condition and support. You remained as my inspiration in many ways since childhood, I am there for you always no matter what happens in life, my unconditional support will continue to shower on you, these exams failures are nothing before you and your character, you are one of the finest human, you just decide what you want in life and continue to enjoy that.

Life gives so many twists and surprises, either we may convert those twists as opportunities or we can blame the same to satisfy our alter ego.

Gratest Devotees

I had an hour break between my back to back movies on Sautrday, so I went around for a walk, huge crowd was moving on streets, with curiosity I went there, few people carrying God’s idol on their heads, thin metal lords pierced through lips and hooks pierced into their body including head. I was a terrible incident for me and I also started following them. After some time I was curious to know whether those people will get pain or not? So I went to one woman who seems to be like a mother of one among those greatest devotees, I started pouring all my queries to her, she was telling that this is a Tipusam festival celebrated on the occasion of lord Murugan birthday, when I asked don’t they get pain while doing so, she replied “ they do fasting for lot of days and all precautions are taken before doing so”… so many stupid questions, she replied with lot of patience, when I observed the people who ever carrying those idols, they are too tired, swelling and bleeding, people around them are singing songs so that Murugesan gives lot of energy to them to carry his idol. I asked her will you take these people to hospital after this, her answer is no, will your Murugesan come and save these people , will these people live for 200 years for doing so, then a serious look at me.

Am I mad to ask all those questions to the greatest devotes, if I was in India someone should have beat me, I calculated all that risk before asking :-). One thing is very sure all those people doing all that stuff for their personal or family well being, do they have to beg some unknown person with that much pain for selfish acts, isn’t it possible to gain the same with much less effort than what they are doing?? Will God really apprciate this kind of acts?? Who is right, am I unable to see what ever they are seeing?? Is it my indifference??

While playing badminton my team mate hit badly on my finger accidentally, he was apologizing me so many times though the pain not even one millionth of those devotes pain, quite possible that those devotees also can’t bear small pain caused by their friends, expect to apologize but how can they bear so much pain for an unknown and unseen person.??? What is this...., some one please come and enlighten my brain.. Murugesan at least you give me some real knowledge……thoughts going on… I may find an answer when I go deep into this..


Friday night watched Mr honest Ram Gopal varma’s movie RANN with friends, though it was a good movie but his blog is more entertaining than his movie. After movie, conversation with friends in a bar till late night, little bit sleep, Saturday morning badminton for three hours, then back to back a telugu movie Namo venkatesha and a hindi movie 3 idiots alone, nostalgic feeling while watching 3 idiots as I can correlate so many things in that movie, again some sleep, Sunday morning some paper work which needs to be finished, few hours in office, badminton for three hours, long calls with family. Very hectic and fully utilized weekend, I wish I could have 48 hours in a day.


Will be going to office by cycle from tomorrow onwards , office moved nearer to my living place ..lot of time saving in travel, going to have great time while riding my cycle to office.

Its never late

After dinner at an Indian restaurant, I was traveling to home by bus. An old man sat next to me , after few minutes of travel I got a call from my friend Sridhar, it was a long call , due to sound pollution I was talking a bit louder, my voice is good enough to disturb old man’s mood. His health seems to be not good, he was looking seriously at me, it was an important call for me so I saw at him with an apology face and continued the call. When I told to Sridhar about this old man situation, he asked me “ till now you didn’t talk to that person aa????””, I think Sridhar’s impression was that old man would have known to me by that time…..After the call , old man still having bad impression on me.

Its Sridhar, who reminded me that I should have spoke to him by then so that my voice might not have created that much disturbance. Anyhow I told to my self that its not too late as I have few more minutes travel, its me who created frustration for him, so its my responsibility to take that off. With low voice I apologized but no response, second time apology-nodded his head, third time I told him gently that “ I am trying to talk to you so that you may forgive and leave the bus with good feeling”, I think he was impressed with my approach and started asking me questions like where I am from, what do I do so on…… it was between 5 to 10 minutes travel after the call, so many things happened in that time, he forgot his frustration, lot of questions and answers exchange, he opened the bag he was carrying and showed all the bronze drawings very fast as our stop is coming. He is a professional painter, he paints photos with metals like silver , bronze etc.. which very few people can do. He was a well known actor also, and he was having stage performance contracts with American associations so on…., he is in his 70’s to 80’s……..all that glory seems to be gone by. When I requested , he accepted to take photos of his drawing with my phone , he said ok to publish on my site. We two were the last to get down the bus, as always I forgot the way from bus station to my next bus stop, he came all the way and showed me the bus stop and dispersed. I am sure he left the place with a very good feeling.

What a strange life, in 15 minutes how many things happened, its never late to do any thing. If we have determination and try with honesty, even in the last minutes we can achieve what ever we want. Honesty always play key role in life. Attached are the pictures of his drawings and his acting days.

Its my wife birthday tomorrow, she is traveling from grand parents place to her parents place, travel disturbing her health, I do worry though I won’t express to her. I should have been with her to celebrate her b’day as she likes celebrations. I think her birthday resolution seems to be not to spend money on useless things. She is a girl born with golden spoon, I would like her to be as she was but somehow she seems to be changed. She is my best friend, I can talk anything and everything so is she, and tonight I will be thinking all these days of togetherness and how the time running.

This is me! Jason

Back then in 2007, I moved to Melbourne from Sydney for work. I think that was my first day in office. After firstday formalities I was told that I will be working for one highly respected person at ANZ , Hamish Talty. Hamish gave warmth welcome to ANZ and told me what I am supposed to work on. As part of regression testing, I have to read xml files stored as images from database but no idea how to do. Reading and writing blobs from databases is not as easy as inserting data to table. In my 5 years career many people gave partial or false information on reading blobs from database, all most all people whom so ever I approached either gave me some internet links or some document or something which is of no use. Hamish being so generous introduced me to one person who can help me in doing this; he was looking a bit fat than me, wearing half sleeves simple shirt, having his convocation photo in front of his desk. I requested him that I need help to retrieve xml’s from database and explained my problem in detail , I thought that it may take at least a week for him to help me partially just like others, to my surprise he read all thousands of xml’s in few minutes time and send me the link where I can access those xml files. That’s the first time I met a person who can play with database blobs, obviously he was looking a like a hero to me as I was looking forward for such person. His name is Jason, Jason Raynar.


As part of work, me and my teammates used to develop many things, when ever we were stuck up with some technical issue , if me my teammates or internet cann’t solve that problem then Jason is there. Like that I used to meet him quite often. If I approached he never disappointed, one of the best quality in Jason is he helps you till you become fully comfortable with his solution, he helps you 100%. In my every interaction with him he is looking so different and better than he was before. He is so much passionate about everything he do, he try to automate things where everyone waste time in doing things repeatedly and manually, he thinks out of the possibilities, his thoughts starts where most of others thoughts ends, highly self motivated, he lives every second of life with passion and purpose, … he can alone develop any technical product with THE BEST performance if opportunity given. His passion motivates others to achieve better results, That’s partial technical side of Jason which I know.

Jason as a person is amazing. He is so simple and down to earth, never showoff for anything, very caring for people whom he cares for, When ever people are crossing office door with him he always let others to go with his welcoming words “after you” which is welcome sign for helping hand, I think whom so ever working with Jason are the luckiest people as you don’t get a better person than Jason to work for in every way.

My life changed completely after meeting him, It’s not his technical skills but his working style and positive attitude inspired me a lot. I learned how to think out of the possibilities, how to be modest and simple and how to be a better human. Inspiration I took from him continuing in me in most of the things I do. The reason for writing this blog is yesterday I gave a presentation to the entire bank’s teams at my workplace, so many accolades came and coming in my way for my new initiatives, I am inundated with that recognition, if I look back Jason is the person who inspired me for all this. Unknowingly I do remember him everyday at work. On this earth one of the great thing happened to me is meeting Jason, I feel happy about this just before I die also, if at all god exists I am thankful to him for creating Jason.

I meet so many better people in life , everyone looks better for me as mostly I look at better side of the individual, but I meet Jason like people rarely , he is unique and best.

He presented me a microwave teddy bear while I was leaving Australia, which is next to me while I am writing this blog.

PS: This is me! Jason----- this was the first mail subject received from him. This is the only photo I have as hard disk with all photos crashed recently.

Purpose of life

I was searching in internet about purpose of life , few lines caught my attention, some great person suggested below steps to find purpose if life.

1.Take out a blank sheet of paper or open up a word processor where you can type .
2.Write at the top, “What is my true purpose in life?”
3.Write an answer (any answer) that pops into your head. It doesn’t have to be a complete sentence. A short phrase is fine.
4.Repeat step 3 until you write the answer that makes you cry. This is your purpose of your life.

I tried for enough time , didn't get any answer which makes me cry. In recent days I am thinking too much about life purpose and I became passionate about this topic. I am hoping that at least by end of this life I may find answer. Atheists like me will ever find answer to life's purpose??

I read somewhere that if you believe in god you can't become god, am I trying to become god?? If at all god exists does he believe in God?? If yes, whom does he believe?? Where this cycle started?? Cycle ......froget about life cycle, I have a cycle in front of me which is giving some exciting moments when I ride on it.Going to ride in this midnight , now the time is 1 AM.. Attached is the photo of my cycle.So many irrelevant stupid or genius questions, brain taking too much and energy for all these.

Going for cycle ride.

Met Andrew again

Its too much tiring day, cosmetic changes to last week production work and analisin new work items, on the way back to home good conversation with my colleague Sunil about Indian infrastructure and its consequences. He is so much fascinated about studies and doing some great things always. In mid thirties took a break, went to London and did post graduation from there.
Andrew Lavelle John from Australia joined me at work. He used to live in Gold coast, we both worked together for quite some time in Melbourne. I used to enjoy his company, so is now.
Swapna forgot her mobile at home, so no complaints today as I can't reach her by phone.
Its almost 13 hours of non stop work today and the time is 1 AM, have to catch up some sleep and reenergize for another hectic day.