Money, PHASE 1

Everyone might have experienced the worst and best experiences with money. Through out my life I was bitten by money in many many ways.My first experience with money was when I am 9 years old and suffering from fever , my father asked my mom for money which he has given few days back.My mom used it for household expenses, dispute there, then we went to hospital with no money to the near by village and doctor treated us after assurance to pay soon.That was the beginning for my journey to money. I was around 10, me with friends found a half rupee coin at the bottom of a big iron pipe, we 4 friends worked on it for more than 4 hours and enjoyed 10 chocolates we got with that money.My needs with money were growing with my age, but I was unable to find any source for money.Once in a while relatives comes to my home and they give some change while leaving home, that happens very rare.My frustration levels going up, then I tried my own ways of getting money like selling books which my father buy at the beginning of academic year for me,doing some construction jobs without knowing at home,writing notebooks for seniors of nearby village so that they give some money etc etc. all these was not giving enough confidence for me.... Real pain with money started when I am 15,so many of my seniors and my batch mates discontinued their education as their parents cannot afford education expenses, my younger brother also one among them later I forced him to restart his studies where he left.A genius friend in my intermediate left his studies for the same money, I have to give a miss for Anna University and Regional colleges, the best colleges in India for the same money,I gave all my first 4 years of earnings to my uncle with 45% FOURTY FICE PERCENT -- interest rate just I don't have relatively small money at the right time,me and many mates like me were never concentrated fully on studies or job as money was always biting some way or other,lost relations for money,lied hell lot of times- again for the same money, friends fought for the same money.


All the money I was talking at each instance above is probably any layman in developed countries can earn from a an hour to a month odd job. In my life I have seen so many people decided their fate at the early age itself as there is no hope or support for the so called minimum money.Where is that god who is allowing others to ruin their fate for no reasons???


Poor people lives are badly effected by very very little money, not even money,just hope for money.God, jesus-allah or what so ever,its not just giving life but show some ray of hope for everyone man.....everyone actually not living the life u have given, just passing the days with pain, I am doing my efforts to reach u god,will question him when I meet him.

one of my lecturer who was in his 60's once told that "Anil, it will take one person's life time to bring up the family living standard's ", it was a statement come from life time experience, that one person in the family needs a vision and courage. I have seen and seeing so many families in my village itself who didn't find that one person in the family, still living the poverty life with half meals and no hope.

Will write in the next blog on what money means to me now....