Day17-Misunderstanding

My roommate who is leaving to India for good wrote a blog for me in my laptop at the airport just before he leaves.
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So, we are always apprehensive about the unknown be it a new place, new country, new people, new gadgets or anything new.
For new gadgets or a new place or country we have to adopt to them.But when it comes to new people it is a very different experience.
It often starts with a lot of guessing about each other.
I had no idea about my new colleague whom I met only once when I was in singapore. But that was a very short meeting where we hardly interacted.
In melbourne the same person has been my flatmate for 7 months.
I can say I had one of the best times I had in melbourne be it in office or at home.
Anil and I used to have very lively discussions almost about anything. While gradually interacting with him I found him to be a very very helpful person who is always ready to help with a bundle of energy even at the most odd hours of day and night.
Through our discussions he revealed himself as a very thoughtful and matured person. He was very honest enough to open himself up and we shared lot of interesting aspects of our lives.
He has been always encouraging and transparent in his dealings. Though he looks hefty but still he is a very simple and sweet person at heart.
He is a very positive minded fellow both in terms of professional as well as personal life.
Smart as he is in his professional work as well as otherwise, he gives other people lot of food for thought about the right and the wrong.
He is a person who has already excelled to a quite an extent and will surely bring lot more glory to himself and his associates.
It was a pleasure to be with him and know a person who has triggerred me to learn quite a few things which I have silently learnt from him.
Hope to see u soon agai buddy.
Keep up the good work and we will cherish these melbourne times in years to come.
It was a pleasure writing this blog for you san!!! ----INDRAJITH
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Yesterday internet was not working in my room, life seems to be difficult witout internet. Work,friends, movies,music ,bank balances, trading, renting a house, telephone calls, learning, even blogging etc..... everything is happening through internet .Internet is not virtual world,its real where most of the so called software engineers like me speding mazor part of daily life.
Yesterday was tiring day ,my close friend got angry on me for no reason.Misunderstanding happens many times in life,most of the times opposite person who stand at questioning side has to think before coming to a conclusion. I decided not to give any explanation for anyone, "those who understand you never ask for an explanation , those who ask for explanation never understand you at all".All problems -only solution -remove expectation even a little from others.
Because internet was not working,I tought of writing blog from my mobile,but my mobile didn't allow me to type anything in the blog body.Lots of things happened yesterday,lunch with my collagues Felicity ,Deb & Luke ,evening drinks farewell to my good friends Sidharth Sinha and Inrajith as they are leaving to India tomorrow, shifted my luggage to hotel. Indrajith Ghosh MBA from IIT,the person who tolerated me from the last 7 months, who is down to earth , very intelligent , intuitive, caring, adopt himself to any situation, .........I respect him a lot and will do forever, I am sure anyone will like this guy.Sidharth Sinha is also MBA from IIT, he was my roommate in Sydney for 6 months ,very cool and passionate guy, these people gave me lots of innovative ideas which I may put into action in future. Few months back me and Sidharth Sinha sat together almost one full night and articulated vision and mission for the product I am working on. We shared the same vision with my company management ,that document gave lots of accolades from compnay management.
Today morning ,had idly and vada as breakfast with Indrajith and some rest then to ariport to give sendoff to Indrajith.While coming to aiport good discussions with taxi driver, check in and then some shopping.While I am shopping, my friend wrote a blog for me, then we had lunch and sendoff.

After posting this blog, I will go to home from airport and will revisit his association with me while travelling.

Day16-No internet in the room ,unable to type message with phone

Day15-FAREWELL

Today time sheets day,day before every month end , all managers focus is on time sheets,I have been getting these alerts from my managers since the beginning of the my career.All managers have to submit the GMA(Gross Margin Actuals) by last working day of every month, so they push their teammates.From the last few months,I submit my time sheets to me and I approve them for myself, according to my company system I am the manager to myself(I am not joking).When I told the same to my colleagues ,they were laughing like anything ,most of them listening this first time,my time sheet system response is so fast today.When it was slow I didn't do any mistake,today I screwd up my time sheets,I applied working days as leaves and leaves as wroking days ,the worse thing I approved them.Tomorrow I have to sort this out,otherwise it will effect this year appraisal process :-)

I know one Indian-Pakistani-Australian by name Shamim.I am working closely with Shamim for some production implementation activity in these days,today he came to me for some clarification that I requested him to implement,some how I initiated discussion about his childhood ,the discussion went on for 90 mintes.He explained all his life time learnings.He moved to Pakistan from Surat-India when he was 9 years old in 1960's.He was explaning those olden days life style and the stuggles he went through to lead a good life at his early age.He started his life in a packaging company,then as a teacher so on..... now he is the man wo handles bank's production system very efficiently and he treats his team mates on par with his kids.Worth spending time with him,he also told that "Anil, success is not speaking something, but listening to others", I may need some more experience to undersatnd his nice quote.In those olden days he married to a girl of his choice by convincing parents in the best possible way.

Tomorrow is last day in present office for one of my teammate and friend Scott , she and her friend became my friends , they even park their car in my room and when ever time permits I used to go with them for evening walk . These girls are very soft spoken and friendly in nature..Today we all walked from office to home,memorising all these days that we worked together and discussed about their future plans , took farewell snaps and assured that all of us will meet again in future.Tomorrow I might be going for lunch with them if time permits.

Had dinner at Indian restaurant ,showed farewell snaps to my roommates .One of friend is devotee or one of the girl in the photo, he is going to miss them badly:-).I told them same to that girl while walking , she was happy to know about her fan club.

As expected got a warning kind of mail from timemsheet management people that "Anil,More care needs to be exercsied while submitting time sheets such errors are not acceptable".Thanks to the mistake I did, I got to know one senior person becasue of my mistake, now its my turn how I am going to deal ,with this person, I am confident that I will impress him very well.Mistakes are nothing but opprtunties to learn and grow in life.

Some of my Indian colleagues got awards for their excellant work ,send heartful appreciation mails to them before going to bed.

Day14-Dress Rehearsal

Who ever worked at client places or implemented projects in production must be aware of this dress rehearsal ,this is nothing but implementing the total project in a test environment similar to production implementation procedure. One of my project mate asked me few months back , what is dress rehearsal, I just joked to him that bring in new dress to office and change the dress when ever you feel like on that particular day, if you don't change your team leader will change it for you. Today is dress rehearsal for one of the project I am working on, which will go live in a week time. This dress rehearsal really stripped of my clothes. Started at around 10 AM in the morning and completed by 7.30 PM with lot of stress...Something went wrong in between, lot of tension and successfully completed at the end. I didn’t have free time today to laugh even once in the office. By the time I reach home I am lost completely.

Had dinner and practiced laughing therapy at home with roommates. I learned laughing therapy as part of YOGA. When I was doing my college project ,there is a gentleman Abhay Jain,he used to teach yoga in the office, I was the regular student of his class and practiced yoga for 6 months. Everyday yoga class used to end with laughing therapy ,as of now I can laugh for at least 15 minutes continuously for no reason. When I was listening to music my friend whom I feel as god in my life called me from India, we fight for no reason, fighting is fun for us, he was scolding me for something and I was just enjoying, he kept the phone with lot of anger, I will call him on the weekend to have more fun. Already informed to rest of the friends about this incident through mails, fun begins soon...

My roommates are busy in watching the movie APOCALYPTO,its movie about cannibals, I will watch movie after this blog.

We had heated discussion about cool behavior versus tensed under stress. History and psychologists says that best of a person comes out when the person is in controlled pressure and tension. I personally experienced many times ,recently for my IELTS exam.

My blog readers are increasing, so is responsibility on me .I received one good comment for my blog and few more friend’s appreciations over chat.

Keep it up Anil :-)

Its full busy day today , me doing strip dance in the office :-)......

Pic:That was the picture taken in Disney Land.

Day13-AUSTRALIAN DINNER

Woke up, brush up, dress up ,bag pack up....landed in office. While I was having breakfast at my desk I got a mail saying that "Anil,I was wondering if you had plans for this evening? Would you like to come over to my house for dinner and a cool down in our pool?". First I thought it’s a spam then I thought he was joking, no not at all. He was asking me about what kind of food I eat etc.. etc...He is non other than my Australian test manager Paul Gilders ,like a tiger to payments developers:-).I don't know why he invited me, I cannot even think of swim and have dinner with him. Most of the times he was furious in the office, very strict and I have to give so many valid explanations in a day. First he invited me alone, later he told me to invite my roommates also. After I confirm him, he called his partner and informed about my arrival.

At lunch time I went home and brought my swimming dress, I am eager to see how Paul behaves at home.Finshed my work by 5.30 PM and went to his home along with my roommate Shaik.Received a warmth welcome from his family members. With in 5 minutes we became comfortable at his house. Had some juice and jumped into the pool. Me ,Paul and his son enjoyed swimming for an hour. Discussed lots of things while swimming about his athletic activities. He is a TRIATHLON Australia winner in 2007.TRIATHLON is a sports event consisting of swimming, cycling and running over long distances. These events are placed back-to-back in immediate sequence. Paul is a true sports man. I had bath and ready for the dinner.

His partner Ali ,his Daughter Sametha prepared delicious dinner.Pasta,Garlic bread and salad was the dinner.Had lots of fun while having dinner.Ali teaches Professional ,personal ethics & Research methods for doctors and philosophy at Melbourne university.Asked few questions about philosophy ,she gave impressive answers. I hope some day I will do apprentice with her in philosophy. She also asked about me and my living etc.Discussions went on till late night.
Paul's house is very huge, its a 7 bed room individual house,2 office rooms ,very big hall and kitchen,2 big dining tables, swimming pool,gym,cars ......all luxuries are there in the house. His son was telling about 10 dollars he earned today by working some where, Paul was very happy and proud, he discussed and gave some suggestions to his son.That was very thought provoking discussion for me.Paul being very rich,earning thousands of dollars everyday allowed his young son to earn some money which is nothing before his status.It may be part of their culture,but for me its totally new and a good learning. After we had dinner one of his son cleaning all the plates, I asked him if I would be of any help, Paul told that “ don’t worry Anil everyone’s responsibilities are clearly defined for the next one month”. I learned about true son- father relationship and family values today.Paul is completely a family man, one of the few I met who lives second by second.
Thanked everyone for their hospitality before I leave , Ali genuinely asked to come again when ever possible .Its a memorable and thought provoking evening which I can cherish forever .Time to sleep to see Paul again tomorrow.

Day12-EXPECTATION

Expectation-the most dangerous word in my view. Most of the problems in any relation can be attributed to expectation. My first experience with expectation was when I am child. It was diwali time, my friend's parents gave money to their kids,I was expecting that my parents too will give me at least 10 rupees to buy crackers. Evening time reached, I was waiting, no one in the home turned up with money, totally disappointed, I went to my mother and asked to give me 10 rupees for buying crackers. My mother was helpless, I told that I won't eat food with out money. All the communication with my father has to go through my mother. My mother told the situation to my father, my father clearly said that "some how if I give money now, this will become your starting point for all your future demands, I won't give money, now its' your wish to eat food or not”. I was very angry, unable to understand my father situation and his vision. Didn’t eat food for two days, after so many requests from my grandfather and mother I started eating food. All that happened because of my expectation. I don't know it was a conscious decision or just happened, from that time onwards I stopped expecting. Used to ask only what ever was mandatory.

Above incident helped me to live happy life even in struggles. My expectation from anyone is almost nothing now. Expectations leads to disappointment, if you stop expecting anything from anyone then most of the problems in life are solved. Count all problems at anytime, remove expectation from those problems then see the difference. Be it from a friend, from a colleague ,from manager, from a company , from government etc....try not to expect anything. Most of the times if you deserve something you will get it, if you deserve but still you are not getting then problem is with you only, you have to find a way to get what you deserve. Rather than expecting its better to find a way to get what you want. From the same above diwali situation instead of expecting money, I would have impressed my dad to give me that money or I would have worked hard and earned that money or I would have taken loan from someone etc....Another example that I can imagine is if a friend is coming from foreign and if expectations are to bring something worth of 100 dollars, even if he brings 99.9 dollars worth then there is a disappointment, if there is no expectation even a single chocolate will do wonders. So many examples in daily life.....

But expectation is mandatory in few things, my family should expect from me to take care of them always, my friends can expect to help them in needs. These are order and course of life, being a human have to fulfill atleast these expectations .

Today its Australian day and Chinese new year ,celebrations are in full swing in the city. I am listening crackers sound while writing this blog :-).I met one Chinese person when I was jogging , discussed with him for some time about Chinese new year. Bought ray ban glasses with the money I won in the casino yesterday. If my glasses happen to break in one year time then I will get new one for half the price as part of gaurnatee,I can break intentionally :-).

Arun Shenoy pinged me in gtalk.Arun lives in Singapore, he is a multi talented person, he maintain perfect balance between personal and professional life.When I traveled to Singapore first time, Arun taught me many things both at work and off the work.I was new to foreign country at that time,Arun told me that "Anil,first learn the project ,money will follow you later".Its true ,I am enjoying the fruits of Arun's words and those days hard work now. Few things I know about Arun are, he is very health concious,musician,muscle builder, do stunts on bike apart from great knowledge in Murex. Today he read my blog and appreciated my effort. I was happy for his gesture, though I am nothing before him he spend time to read my blog.Arun if you happen to read my blog again, I just wanted to say you that you are inspiration to me in striking balance between professional and personal life. Received few more appreciations for my blogging hobby.Another friend Srikanth from Singapore send his marriage photos. Happy to see friends getting married.

Going to have dinner with mango pickle... wav....

Good night.

Day11-CROWN and SANIA

Woke up at 7:00 AM ,checked personal mails.Lots of mails floating among my friends related to Raman and his achievements,shared my views also .We are a group of 10 friends, 8 of them are very close friends from their school and intermediate days onwards, me and one more joined them in engineering days,from then till now our friendship is growing day by day.Everyone is well settled and spread across the world.Fun is unlimited if we all come together.In 2007 December we all met together in Bangalore ,went for a trip to OOTY, it was one of the memorable trips of my life.

I had 2 hours driving lesson today.My confidence level growing up day by day in driving. Instructor assured me that I will become one of the best driver soon, I have an alternative career in hand now :-).Driving is not as easy as I was thinking, lots of concentration required ,have to observe everything in surroundings. Instructor told that being a good driver is not just enough to drive safely, others in the road also have to be safe drivers,so observe and keep away from bad drivers,hmmm!!!. Getting driving license is a difficult task in Australia, first I wrote one theory exam with a preparation of 15 days. After passing that exam I got learner's license, then second exam to identify the hazard’s. Passed that one too. Third one is actual driving test which is due on March 6th ,fingers crossed. Worth going through these many tests as all these are for my safety only.

After driving ,had nice lunch and then a small sleep. Called friend if he is interested for evening walk, he said ok.Went out for walk till CROWN. Crown is one of the biggest casino, the place where dollars flow like a water but always the flow is out of the pocket. I used to go there every weekend with my dearest friend and spend evenings there for entertainment , my friendship has been broken recently so no more crown from the last three months. Today I played with 50 dollars, I bought to the coins to play, my friend just played for me. Got 280 dollars profit. I shared half the profit with my friend in turn he gave me half of the investment, he was not at all interested to take profit as he didn't invest anything. I forced him to take, finally he accepted. After sometime we played again, this time both of us invested. we won 275 dollars profit again. Third time we lost 50 dollars. So together we had a profit of around 500 Dollars. He told that he might be buying a gold ring with that money. I will buy a ray ban glasses tomorrow and some charity. After that we both had pizza in some restaurant,SANIA MIRZA the gorgeous tennis girl was there in front of us having dinner with her father, she was looking amazing and she is enjoying her privacy as no one disturbing her. Stared at her for few seconds and left the place. Watched a movie VALKYRIE in theatre, revisited my book memories of Hitler while watching the movie.

On the whole today its profitable and joyful day.

Day10-House cleaning

Early morning got an SMS from my test manager that testing activities for today going to start soon. I am not supposed to be in office today, replied to SMS ,slept again ,woke up again at 10.30.This is the last weekend that I am going to stay in my present apartment. I am staying at this place from the last 7 months. All my roommates are leaving to India so have to vacate this house in a weektime.This house is situated in the heart of the city,I can see total beauty of the Melbourne from my house.Yarra River and Crown are the most happening places of the Melbourne ,these are very next to my house.Lots of live performances are happening around Yarra river in this summer time.

Cleaned all the garbage in the house, gave a new look to the house with cleaning activities. My place is so beautiful than ever before. Packed up all my stuff in 15 minutes time. I like to keep as much less luggage as possible. From the last three years I have moved to 15 to 20 different places across different countries. Packing of my stuff never took more than an hour. Few clothes and books in a suite case, all electronics and accessories in another bag. I love to keep my luggage less than 25 kgs always, so far it never crossed that limit, hope I will stick to this forever.

Went out to Indian groceries shop, bought rice ,readymade curries etc.On my way back to room from Indian shop went to APPLE showroom. APPLE ,these people never cease to amaze with their innovative products and quality. Bought a laptop bag .My roommate prepared lunch, mean while I slept again, had lunch at 4PM.Opened internet to check mails. My engineering classmate and close friend Kiran was online. Chatted with him for sometime and Kiran gave me mail id of another close fiend Venky , I am not in touch with Venky from many months. Venky is master in English vocabulary ,ask him any word through out the English news paper he answers in less than 5 seconds. I can look upto Venky in vocabulary at any time.Venky got married and was very happy for that news. Shared lots of things. Got another call ,friend asked me to join him for a hind movie at his home. Went to his home ,watched the movie "BUSH COMING TO INDIA", total movie is about shaking hand with BUSH. Enjoyed the movie and snacks. Back to room, prepared dinner ,enjoying NIRAVANA LOUNGE music while writing bog.

That’s all for today.

Day9-Power of expression

Its second Friday after I start writing blog.Environment is more colorful in office than usual Friday as its going to be three days weekend in Australia being AUSTRALIA day on Jan26th.Yesterday night me and my roommates discussed lots of good things about my colleagues. When I was sleeping I told to myself that "if I observe some thing good in any person in my surroundings, first I will let that person know about his goodness”. I observe lots of great things from the people in and around me, but most of the times failed to express. This will not happen from now onwards. I have a colleague who is very good in nature and always very friendly and helpful. Today morning after going to office, first I mailed to him as below.

I feel like expressing my opinion on you. You are a true gentle man with lots of great qualities. I learned many things from you , yesterday night in my room we were discussing all your great qualities. I am feeling proud to know you , will remember you forever Maurice even after I am out of Australia.

After a few minutes I got below reply to the above mail

The feeling is mutual Anil. Amongst many great qualities I see in you, I especially admire the attribute that you are able to keep a polite, respectful and happy demeanor even when faced with stress and pressure. To me this shows that you have a very strong underlying belief system - it is very encouraging for me when I see others who can maintain their principles even when challenged. I also admire that you give feedback; often we do not tell others how we feel when we have positive feedback, I think we should do that more often. Thank you very much for your kind words, they are much appreciated. Please know that working with you has been a great experience!

Above reply gave me chance to see myself from his shoes. One true mail gave me a stronger friendship with him. His reply quadrupled my opinion on him. I realized that "if we have good opinion about others and the opposite person didn't realize that ,then that opinion itself has no value"...Toooooooooo much philosophy.

Three of my colleagues at different times today told that "Anil you are under stress ,take a break for sometime ", I was feeling the same after I come out of office today. Went for a long walk with my friend for more than 2 hours ,that walk gave me lot of relief.

Day8-Laugh

Laugh is one of the today's discussion topic in my room. I used to laugh for no reason as if we are mad from the last 3 months .After office environment was so lively in the room. We were four roommates, everyone is very different to each other but laugh is the only thing common among us. Few of them are away now.When some one is nearer to us we may not realize their value much, may realize when they are away.

Today when I was having late lunch alone in a Malaysian restaurant, my colleague Hamish also came to the restaurant to take his lunch parcel. He came to me, discussed for 5 minutes and made me to laugh with his sense of humour.Hamish is a highly respected person at ANZ and everyone can learn so many good things from him. When I asked Hamish about his new year resolution, he told that "Cooking 200 meals for his wife in this year" , wondering any Indian husband will ever have such a resolution????.I learned many things including this from him, will write everything soon.

After long discussion in the room about laugh, we passed a rule that "for every 5 minutes of discussion ,there should be at least 30 seconds of laugh ", all roommates going to depart ways very soon, but this rule is valid forever. I told to myself that with whom so ever I interact I will try to make them laugh. This is the expectation from me to myself, I am sure I will beat my expectations, will measure myself everyday. Next time if you happen to meet me a laugh is guaranteed.

Second topic of today's discussion was arranged marriages versus love marriages. Being a bachelor this is my most favorite topic. Everyone put in their thoughts some in favor of arranged and others for love marriages. No proper conclusion came in . All these developed countries people are curious to know about how arranged marriages happen in India. One of my colleagues is from New Zealand, she was asking several questions like will you start loving after marriage, what if you don't like the girl after marriage, how parents will decide the girls etc........no answer at me for those confusing and intelligent questions :-).

Today I had a driving lesson, my instructor was impressed for my improvement in driving :-).Evening jogging time was so wonderful due to the presence of lots of people around in this summer time. I am done with the day and getting ready to sleep.

PS:Photo of the day is Harbour Bridge in Sydney,world's best new year fire works happen there.In photo bridge looks so beautiful but not in reality :-).I travelled for 6 months ,two times a day on this bridge as my room when I was in Sydney is after this bridge.

Day7-Missing roommates

Most of the day spend in meetings. It was late in the office, so I had reason to escape evening jogging. Had pizza for dinner, discussed topics like politics and god while having pizza. My roommate Shaik was giving some explanation on what will happen if there is no god and religion. He is firm believer of god and truly follows Islam. I was not convinced with the logic given by Shaik about god.

My colleague and a very senior guy working as a contractor to ANZ, his contract will be expiring by end of March. He is also running his own software company for portfolio and cash flows management in Australia. He is planning to expand his operations. He asked me to join him if I am interested to work in Australia for more time. He said that "Anil, its not that you need my company but it’s my company that needs you”, quite impressive. I will copy this dialogue for future. Didn’t extend the topic with him as it is not professional to discuss when I am committed to my job now.

Rajeev ,my roommate might have reached India by this time. Discussed lots of good things about Rajeev and Manoj today, we are missing their presence. Worst thing is never told their good things to them. I will change myself in this. Discussed hell lot of ugly things and adult jokes when they were in my room. We were 4 friends in the room, two of them left to India, we enjoyed to maximum extent. Not even a single rift among us. We like and respect each other and I am sure we will remain as friends forever.


One of my friend told me that "Anil try to have one answer for two questions.....those questions are (1)What you do for living? (2)What you enjoy most in the life? ", Is this really possible to have one answer for those two? If yes, then we may not need holidays or weekends. I have to think tonight, am I really enjoying what I am doing? Is this what I want in life? Thoughts going on...........

Good night.

Day6-Men&Women

Happy days just pass like that. Struggled days are always remembered by people who ever face them. Today is one such a day. Test manager is so angry for many valid reasons. What ever the code delivered by us was not up to his standards, so he gave some serious instructions. I love to face such challenges because at the end of that anger you will be more close to that person if handled with right spirit. Assured him that I will give the fix .He is satisfied with the explanation and changes provided, as I believe now my relation with him is better than it was yesterday.Vikram and Sridhar from offshore worked very hard to fix most of the bugs.

My roommate Rajeev is leaving to India, all of the Mindtree colleagues decided to give farewell to Rajiv with evening drinks. I denied the invitation as I never enjoy neither drinks nor bar environment. Rajeev is one person liked by all. I know him from the last three years and everyone likes him . He is having his own world and lives every second with joy.

When I was doing college project in a company, we used have an event "Two minutes talk" on Friday evening, on any topic interested people can talk for two minutes .A women Rachana Salgia spoke for two minutes about "Difference Between women and men" on various points as below.

Television:----Women like to see any program completely but men keep on changing the channels.
Vision:-------Wife can find easily if husband is looking at other women, husband cannot find even if woman is having affair.
Shopping:----Women do shopping from morning till evening without buying anything, men completes all of their shopping in few hours.
Relax:-------Men like to relax as soon as they come from office; women directly start kitchen work after office without any break.

I thought for few minutes and spoke on the same topic as below.

Television:-----Men want to know what is happening in this world that’s why they keep on changing the channels, women want to see and cry till the end of the serial, they want to cry again even if the same serial comes again.
Vision:------Husbands have faith on wives where as wives don't have on husbands.
Shopping:-----Men want to save their time to earn money for women shopping.
Relax:------Women do nothing in the office that’s why they have energy even after coming from the office where as men work very hard in the office.

At the end I told that "There is only one way to payback mother love, that is "reborn again as mother to your mother", so every men should reborn again as women”.

The lady who spoke first was senior vice president, She was always high achiever and brilliant. I was waiting for the right time to introduce myself to her. If I go and introduce just as an employee probably I would have become one among all. Intention of my speech was just to oppose her and let her remember my face so that later I can learn more from her .At that time I don't have any experience with television or shopping or anything, just told like that. My purpose of that speech was fulfilled, later she took me into her project, Now I am still in contact with that woman though we departed our paths.

Out of everything I spoke , only one thing which is true to my heart is "There is only one way to payback mother love, that is reborn again as mother to your mother.

Have to go for shopping today with Rajeev, otherwise Rajeev will kill me :-).

Bye

Day5-GOD

Monday, week started with little bit enthusiasm as the go live date of next two projects is two weeks away. My colleague Andrew from gold coast joined me at work, 45 years old Andrew is a very professional, talented and looks younger than his age. Always completes his work before time and beat my expectations. He is having all most all good qualities of Japanese people. I may not forget him through out my life. My tutor who teaches me driving SMSed me saying that "Hi Anil,my apology.Unfortunately I need to reschedule tomorrow lesson,Hope Thursday is Ok with you" , I accepted his request, he immediately replied me "Anil, you are a true gentleman", I didn't understand any gentleman ship there. If my time didn't allow for rescheduling then I may not be a gentleman :-).

Yesterday my colleague Sathish invited for a lunch. His wife is Meena ,I know her from my Japan days onwards, she was one of the few with whom I can speak in telugu in Japan.She prepared delicious south Indian food and I ate lunch and dinner in one meal. I owe lot of home meals to Sathish family, I will repay after I marry. Had very nice time there, just before we leave, started discussion about GOD. It was an interesting and funny discussion. I feel like writing my experiences with GOD now.

When I was 16 my uncle took me to the state famous, India famous and world famous god Lord Venkateswara.Journey time from my uncle place to Tirupati is 24 hours. Buses to Tirupati are always over packed. Got a seat in the last row. The bus I was traveling met with small accident ,by god grace nothing has happened other than bleeding on my uncle nose. He managed self first aid with the towel he is carrying,I was first shocked then adjusted to the situation. Reached Tirupati,tonsured head ,now we have to visit our beloved god. Each and every place in Tirupati is corrupted, its written free every where but you never get anything for free. I accepted for tonsuring just to have cap on my head. We were supposed to see god in the free row, so we have to stay in the closed iron gates till we get our turn. Those gates were no different to jail cells we see in movies. Changed 10's of cells before we reach god. Spend more than 40 hours in those gates, no food available inside bars, had snacks for two times. I tried to go back, but no way to go.Once you go inside you can't come out without seeing god.
After reaching the main gate of the god, guards there asked to return back when god statue is some 200 meters away.Thats where free darshan ends. Nothing was visible for me other than a black stone that to for 5 seconds. Struggle to see the god was very interesting, I remember that I prayed two things at that time (i)Never give me such worse situation to visit you (ii)Make me to believe that god doesn't exists . I don't know these two requests are contradictory but this is what I prayed for. Being the most powerful god he accepted my request, from then till now god never made me to believe that god exists. Now I am in big fix by god, god made me not to believe in god:-)..

Jokes apart ,I don't just blindly argue that god doesn't exists. Let the god do his duty, let him fulfill his life's purpose, leave him with some peace. We have so many things to concentrate. Once one of my friend told that "Anil,I don't believe in god becuase I don't want to go and beg anything from anyone" ,this sentence looks valid for me. We may rely on your capabilities. In my recent discussions I was telling to my friends that "If I pray to myself for money or for peace or for anything, then I can immediately give at least few dollars or some peace or something to myself,no one can help you faster than your self, pray for your self". I am looking for a person who can show me the existence of god and who can clarify if I have any doubts . Hope I may meet such person and may become the biggest devotee of god. I want it to happen.

Its dinner time.

Bye for today.

Anil

Day4-Upto 10th Class

Mine is a village with 500 people, among them 98% of the people are uneducated which means at most 10 people were studied after 5th standard when I was 6 years old, those 10 people also unable to get a job after their studies. My village was disconnected from the rest of the world. No electricity, no minimum medical facilities, no transportation, no school, no shops, no phone ....nothing was available for minimum survival. All sides of my village is surrounded by big canals and have to travel minimum 3 kilometers for studies or for any daily needs. One among those 10 educated was a physically handicapped, after completing his 12th standard he setup a school up to 5th standard in my village ,he is everything for that school. He alone teaches from 1st standard to 5th standard. There is no proper place for the school, he used to teach under trees or any open place available for that day. I remember my study days from my second standard onwards. My teacher went to city , he found some job in the city and didn't return to village. After waiting for a month, my villagers searched for another teacher. New teacher came in, taught for few months and he also left my village. No teacher likes to stay in village for so many reasons, no parents pay money to teachers most of the parents try to give some rice or vegetables etc....When ever there is change of teacher I used to get months of holidays, new teacher who ever comes don't know what was taught by previous teacher, so he starts from the beginning again. I didn't had any exams till 5th standard , all I was doing is going to school if the teacher was available. For 5th standard I have to pass exams then only I am allowed to join government school for 6th standard. I used to be called as genius fellow in my surroundings :-), passed 5th standard with first class. By the time I complete my 5th standard I had more holidays than working days and had the experience of studying under different circumstances.

Now the second chapter my life begins, I have to walk 3 kilometers in a desert like place to continue my studies.3 kilometers walk looks like some 10 kilometers as I have to walk in sand. After seeing me for three months, my father thought that its very hard for me to go to school by walk. He transferred me to my mother's father place which is 5 kilometers away from my village as this village is having a high school. But I was against to my father's decision, I want to stay in my village nearer to my mother.With lot of mental struggle I studied at my grandfather's village till 7th standard .In these two years I became the most stupid fellow of village. Till my 5th standard me or my school mates have never seen how a ten rupee note looks like. In my village buy and sell happens with raw material exchanges. People hardly have money with them .When I went to my grandfather's place there I have seen money with my classmates. I never used to get any pocket money,my desire to buy chocolates ,good pens etc.. going up day by day. One day I sold all my books for second hand and enjoyed the day. Friends with same life style joined me, another day I worked as a daily labor without knowing to anyone,earned few rupees and enjoyed. I did so many worse things which made my father very angry, one day he beat me till death at my grandfather's place. I ran away to city by taking 45 rupees from my uncle's pocket, my parents searched for few days but didn't find any clue about me. I went to a far away city and doing my job trials, I went to a private bus driver and requested him for a bus cleaner job. Somehow that bus driver knows about me, he tied my hands and brought me back to my grandparent’s home. After that incident my father took me back to my village. He joined me back to the same school where I joined 6th standard initially. Now the walking life started again. I used to do lot of worse things which irritated my father many times. What ever I worse do ,it didn't effect my studies, I was in top three of my class. I reached 10th class, I have to double my walk as I have to come home and walk to tuition also. Most of the school mates dropped their studies in between .I used to walk alone, night time was so scary to walk from my village to school. One day I was running to tuition at 7PM, all of sudden I saw a burned dead body in front of me on my way, one of the scariest moments of my life. Everyday was a battle to go to school and comeback. Passed 10th class with 76 percentage , became the topper and role model of my school

To sum up either if my first teacher didn’t start a school or if the bus driver didn't recognize me I wouldn't have continued my studies. See the attached photo of my first teacher at my home. I will write next time about what made me to continue my studies when no one is encouraging and about my college life.

Day3-Lost data

I started writing my learnings and journey of my study life.After writing for 45 minutes accidentally lost all the data.It gave me lot of pain.Will write tomorrow again.

Good nite.

Day2-CCTC

Today when I was about to leave to office at 8.00AM, Rajeev offered me morning tea. From the last few days I am having tea because of him. Just to have some chat with him and to make myself comfortable for the day I had tea though I don't like it .I don't like coffee or tea since my childhood, most of the times I burnt my tongue when ever I had tea .Still I don't know how to have hot drinks without burning my tongue, my brother is adept at it. I had bread, felafil and coffee for my brekafast. I used to deny the fact "People do many things in life which they don't like" but no more.

By the time I reach office,my mail box was having lots of mails which needs my immediate action. When I replied to all half of the mails ,my outlook popped up a meeting reminder. Finished meeting and verified rest of the mails, had dosa and watermelon crush for lunch. Watermelon is one of the best thing happened in my life, I love to take watermelon in any form at any time. Interesting thing happened to me in July 2007. I was in Singapore at that time, we get big watermelons for 15 to 20 dollars there, almost everyday I bought one and enjoyed for dinner and breakfast. After a month I had some kind of problems in my body, undergone total body checkup at Changi General Hospital Singapore, doctors said I don't have any problem. Next day I went to hospital again,after asking me so many questions and verifying blood reports doctor told me that I have nothing other than water in my body. Doctors suggested me not to eat watermelon atleast for the next 6 months.

Friday evenings are always filled with lots of energy for obvious reasons, came out of office by 6.00 PM ,had burger in hungry jacks. Went for a movie Chandini Chowk To China.In the same theatre I saw telugu movies also ,telugu movies used to have intervals but for this movie no interval.Three hours non stop torture. One thing I liked in that movie ,hero's character was so coward in the beginning. He sets his goal and realizes his true potential only after having troubled situations and facing a powerful villain. Hard times may bring out the true potential of a person.Good learning.

Surprising,till yesterday sleep was the highest priority if the time reaches 10.00PM , today blogging is highest priority...

Thank you and good night.

Anil

Day1-My first blog

It has been four months wait to write my first blog.I was too lazy in all these days ,today I decided to write my blog by sacrifying my 10.00PM sleep time.I want to continue this blogging forever,lets see how I can manage my time.

Today after office I went for a walk with my colleague pavan setty in Melbourne.We both worked together for 6 monnths in Sydney for common wealth bank,after 8 months he joined ANZ bank where I am working at present.We discussed lots of things about colleagues who gave me most challening situations of professional life , revisted Sydney days.I learned how to find good in bad thorugh my discussion with Pavan .When we were having snacks I was praising him for his positive qualities and he was praising me,it looks like exchange of praisings and I was totally uncomfortable at that time.Pavan with lot of affection invited me for dinner but unable to join him as I decided to blog today.

From the last 3 weeks I got chance to spend time with my wonderful roommates Indru,Rajeev and Manoj, Manoj left to India yesterday.We are feeling very bad for missing Manoj so Indru and ajeev decided to take bitter water to overcome that pain.For no reason we laugh like anything in the room,everyone tries make others laugh.I will be missing these people also soon.Indru prepared delicious dinner and they are very busy in watching MAX PAYNE movie.I am sitting next to them when I am writing this blog .Beautiful girl in this movie drew my attnetion, so I am closing my laptop to watch movie and have my dinner.

Hmmm ,I managed to write few words in my first blog, more later.

Cheers
Anil