Monday, week started with little bit enthusiasm as the go live date of next two projects is two weeks away. My colleague Andrew from gold coast joined me at work, 45 years old Andrew is a very professional, talented and looks younger than his age. Always completes his work before time and beat my expectations. He is having all most all good qualities of Japanese people. I may not forget him through out my life. My tutor who teaches me driving SMSed me saying that "Hi Anil,my apology.Unfortunately I need to reschedule tomorrow lesson,Hope Thursday is Ok with you" , I accepted his request, he immediately replied me "Anil, you are a true gentleman", I didn't understand any gentleman ship there. If my time didn't allow for rescheduling then I may not be a gentleman :-).
Yesterday my colleague Sathish invited for a lunch. His wife is Meena ,I know her from my Japan days onwards, she was one of the few with whom I can speak in telugu in Japan.She prepared delicious south Indian food and I ate lunch and dinner in one meal. I owe lot of home meals to Sathish family, I will repay after I marry. Had very nice time there, just before we leave, started discussion about GOD. It was an interesting and funny discussion. I feel like writing my experiences with GOD now.
When I was 16 my uncle took me to the state famous, India famous and world famous god Lord Venkateswara.Journey time from my uncle place to Tirupati is 24 hours. Buses to Tirupati are always over packed. Got a seat in the last row. The bus I was traveling met with small accident ,by god grace nothing has happened other than bleeding on my uncle nose. He managed self first aid with the towel he is carrying,I was first shocked then adjusted to the situation. Reached Tirupati,tonsured head ,now we have to visit our beloved god. Each and every place in Tirupati is corrupted, its written free every where but you never get anything for free. I accepted for tonsuring just to have cap on my head. We were supposed to see god in the free row, so we have to stay in the closed iron gates till we get our turn. Those gates were no different to jail cells we see in movies. Changed 10's of cells before we reach god. Spend more than 40 hours in those gates, no food available inside bars, had snacks for two times. I tried to go back, but no way to go.Once you go inside you can't come out without seeing god.
After reaching the main gate of the god, guards there asked to return back when god statue is some 200 meters away.Thats where free darshan ends. Nothing was visible for me other than a black stone that to for 5 seconds. Struggle to see the god was very interesting, I remember that I prayed two things at that time (i)Never give me such worse situation to visit you (ii)Make me to believe that god doesn't exists . I don't know these two requests are contradictory but this is what I prayed for. Being the most powerful god he accepted my request, from then till now god never made me to believe that god exists. Now I am in big fix by god, god made me not to believe in god:-)..
Jokes apart ,I don't just blindly argue that god doesn't exists. Let the god do his duty, let him fulfill his life's purpose, leave him with some peace. We have so many things to concentrate. Once one of my friend told that "Anil,I don't believe in god becuase I don't want to go and beg anything from anyone" ,this sentence looks valid for me. We may rely on your capabilities. In my recent discussions I was telling to my friends that "If I pray to myself for money or for peace or for anything, then I can immediately give at least few dollars or some peace or something to myself,no one can help you faster than your self, pray for your self". I am looking for a person who can show me the existence of god and who can clarify if I have any doubts . Hope I may meet such person and may become the biggest devotee of god. I want it to happen.
Its dinner time.
Bye for today.
Anil
Yesterday my colleague Sathish invited for a lunch. His wife is Meena ,I know her from my Japan days onwards, she was one of the few with whom I can speak in telugu in Japan.She prepared delicious south Indian food and I ate lunch and dinner in one meal. I owe lot of home meals to Sathish family, I will repay after I marry. Had very nice time there, just before we leave, started discussion about GOD. It was an interesting and funny discussion. I feel like writing my experiences with GOD now.
When I was 16 my uncle took me to the state famous, India famous and world famous god Lord Venkateswara.Journey time from my uncle place to Tirupati is 24 hours. Buses to Tirupati are always over packed. Got a seat in the last row. The bus I was traveling met with small accident ,by god grace nothing has happened other than bleeding on my uncle nose. He managed self first aid with the towel he is carrying,I was first shocked then adjusted to the situation. Reached Tirupati,tonsured head ,now we have to visit our beloved god. Each and every place in Tirupati is corrupted, its written free every where but you never get anything for free. I accepted for tonsuring just to have cap on my head. We were supposed to see god in the free row, so we have to stay in the closed iron gates till we get our turn. Those gates were no different to jail cells we see in movies. Changed 10's of cells before we reach god. Spend more than 40 hours in those gates, no food available inside bars, had snacks for two times. I tried to go back, but no way to go.Once you go inside you can't come out without seeing god.
After reaching the main gate of the god, guards there asked to return back when god statue is some 200 meters away.Thats where free darshan ends. Nothing was visible for me other than a black stone that to for 5 seconds. Struggle to see the god was very interesting, I remember that I prayed two things at that time (i)Never give me such worse situation to visit you (ii)Make me to believe that god doesn't exists . I don't know these two requests are contradictory but this is what I prayed for. Being the most powerful god he accepted my request, from then till now god never made me to believe that god exists. Now I am in big fix by god, god made me not to believe in god:-)..
Jokes apart ,I don't just blindly argue that god doesn't exists. Let the god do his duty, let him fulfill his life's purpose, leave him with some peace. We have so many things to concentrate. Once one of my friend told that "Anil,I don't believe in god becuase I don't want to go and beg anything from anyone" ,this sentence looks valid for me. We may rely on your capabilities. In my recent discussions I was telling to my friends that "If I pray to myself for money or for peace or for anything, then I can immediately give at least few dollars or some peace or something to myself,no one can help you faster than your self, pray for your self". I am looking for a person who can show me the existence of god and who can clarify if I have any doubts . Hope I may meet such person and may become the biggest devotee of god. I want it to happen.
Its dinner time.
Bye for today.
Anil
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You will love this book then annayya. it's Fountainhead by Ayn Rand
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